it is possible

if i ever doubted those people who said it would happen, then let me be the first to say that i've been proven wrong. when sienna was a baby and we were thinking about having another one someday, adam and i would stay up at night and wonder how we could ever love another child as much as we loved sienna. here she was, this girl, who filled our hearts and our lives with more joy and love than we ever knew possible. who made us smile and laugh and feel whole and hopeful; who made everything beautiful. we were truly in love with her. and we asked each other in wonder, how could that be duplicated? how could we feel that two times over?

and now i know that it is possible

that a love so complete and beautiful and instant and perfect can come again. fill us again with joy and happiness and laughter and bliss. that really is the word for it, isn't it. bliss. seeing this little munchkin wave at me or give me sweet open mouth kisses, or get so excited and yell "daaaaa" from across the room when she sees her dad, or follow sienna everywhere she goes, or smile so widely that her face can barely contain it - is - bliss.

i still don't know what adam and i did to deserve these two. there's nothing we could have possibly done. we've just been given these gifts. once, and now again in equal magnitude. i don't know how that is possible. just that it is possible.